This actually makes a bit sad because I feel like it’s the perfect example someone forcing themselves to be something they aren’t based on “religion,” and ultimately leading them to live a life unfulfilled.
If you’ve followed gospel singer Donnie McClurkin’s story, you might have heard him say that he’s struggled with his sexuality a great deal throughout his life. In 2002, McClurkin wrote that he believed because he “turned” gay due to incidents of childhood molestation and exposure to pornography.
He later shared that through what he called will power and prayer, he was able to “reverse” his sexual orientation. His views on homosexuality and the ability to reverse it caused some trouble for him politically. He was disinvited to perform at an event for President Obama and even spoke out against the legalization of gay marriage.
In 2016, it was noted that McClurkin was in a relationship with fellow singer Nicole C. Mullen. At the time, there was plenty of talk that McClurkin and Mullen would be engaged, however that relationship didn’t last. About the relationship, McClurkin said, “Honestly, the only thing in my life that is missing is marriage. The only thing that is missing in my life that can cause real family, is marriage. Financially, I’m there. Spiritually, I’m almost there. Emotionally, I’m getting it together. But the only thing that’s missing out of everything that I’m doing locally, cross country and globally is that aspect that makes family, family — is that wife that would make man whole, that element that brings favor to man.”
In his upcoming episode of TV One’s “UNCENSORED,” McClurkin shared that he doesn’t know how to be in a relationship with a woman.
“I didn’t know how to have the relationship. I didn’t know, really, what a woman wanted. I’ve messed up more than I’ve had good. My past relationships are a sprinkling of everything, men and women. I don’t know how to do this. And because of that, when things get rough, I go back into my safe place, my music and my ministry.
I want to lay down next to somebody that’s going to be with me for the rest of my life, I really do. I miss the fact that I did not have the family unit that I could lay next to my spouse with my baby on my chest and be the quintessential dad that raises up a family that I saw in my dreams and wanted in my heart.
So, never having a long term relationship and never being married, I chalked that up. I’ll probably be alone for the rest of my life as far as a mate is concerned.
Happiness is something that’s relative. I’ve got joy. Joy is consistent. Happiness is based on what happens. But joy is a constant type of assurance that everything’s going to be okay.”
Peep the clip below and let us know what you think. Could McClurkin’s inability to know “what a woman wants” be because deep down he doesn’t want a woman?